no more excuses ..
just let them fade away
lets begin a new story
maybe a new beginning
with all my strength inside

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been listening to denise ho's "butterfly lovers" cd continously, again, for the past six days. so sad, love the cd though! wish i could have gotten it signed during her autograph signing session but i was in shanghai. blows, one chance i had without having to be shoved around by all her fans at etc of functions. think i'm going to go to another of her fucnctions on sunday but my main objective will be to get leo ku's signature and to get a shit load of pictures of him for my sister. god, she'll hate me but hey i'm doing this for her. otherwise i don't really care for him. i'll be the happiest person in the world if i can pull off getting both of their signatures. haha, aww my luvly dreams. i've completely lost it~

so i was having a this bad dream last night, i don't even remember what it was but i said outloud "DON'T" and woke-up. i think i might have scared my roomate, priscilla. my bad, i've never done that before though.. at least not in my memory.

getting mixed reviews on my plans to study abroad again. well i've only really talked to two people about it, jess and my older sister. jess says go for it since it's a great oppertunity but my ga-jei like "hell the fuck no" basicaly. LOL.. i need to talk to mommy and bryan still. eeekksss...

someone give me motivation to do my work.. my future doesn't seem good enough right now. maybe a smack will do, any volunteers to give me a nice smack to wake me up?